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this pulsating beast those so-called professionals call “the heart” is so excruciatingly difficult to manage sometimes, especially when it is so wildly bursting with sound and effervescent emotion. Some choose to call this explosion an ailment, but others see it as a necessary achievement, for it makes your blood rush more intensely to all other areas of your body (it compensates for how much of it accumulates right there in the center of your bulletproof chest). Because of this unpredictable event you realize now that you are feeling a previously unattainable degree of emotion- a degree not due to your collected memories but due to your collected understanding of how absurd it is to fear reaching a deeper level of intimacy with someone you so eagerly want to spend the rest of your life with. it seems so right, but yet the distance seems so wrong, and no matter how much aromatherapy you use your neck still displays the symptoms of the incurable expression you are trying so hard to contain within yourself.