roses.

The idea of appreciating childhood is attractive. We associate it with simplicity. Innocence. When everything was easy. Ignorance.
In class each day I realize elements and qualities we have lost: creative spontaneity, unbridled enthusiasm...I also realize things we haven't lost: selfishness, lack of awareness, inability to listen, impatience, irritability..
We think we grow out of the immaturity, when all we really do is play dress up.

pitched.

Miles Davis spent his life trying to recreate the first time he heard jazz music.
What he felt that night with Dizzy and Bird was unique, and all secondary attempts at reenacting it fell short.
Memory confuses history
and what you remember is never as good as what it really was.

We spend our days trying to get our lives back,
playing a C sharp when really it sounded like a B flat:

which is why I think we should all carry a tuning fork in our pocket.

bow tie.

We choose to present ourselves to the world in such a way that will mask our inner most fears and insecurities. The problem arises when our presentation clashes with an insecurity, only to provoke an interior cataclysm that at first seems catastrophic but in the end proves to be beneficial. I quote.

"We need to identify specific instances in which we fall short. Are we dogmatic, opinionated, blunt, and abrupt? Do we seek to intimidate or dominate others by the sheer force of our personality? Do people feel ill at ease in our presence because they think we are silently judging their weaknesses and correcting their faults?"

The beauty of having a brain and being able to use it is that we can instigate change within us that will not only make us better people but better to be with.

I am amazed at how society teaches us that certain qualities are virtues and unchangeable. Then one day you wake up and realize that one of your so-called strengths is actually your worst weakness.

morning

                                           Bad hair day, 
                                                          
                                      good soul day.

alas, the light

We seek to fill our unquenchable thirst for inner fulfillment with idols that in reality only lead to our internal death. Money, fame, popularity, sex, reputation...The consequences of these seemingly fulfilling goals are to further deepen your anxiety- because none of them will ever satisfy your need for longing and BElonging. We wait, wait, and wait for someone or something to fill that void.

And how frustrating it is to expend energy on something or someone that doesn't reciprocate it at all. Then again that frustration is tainted by societal conditions that try to convince you that giving something is reserved only for the time you know you'll get something in return.

We need to learn to let go of our anxieties, let go of our need for acceptance and place our trust in the only One who will ever love us unconditionally and eternally (HOW INCREDIBLE IS THAT?).



He might not give you the item, but He'll definitely meet the need.

the renewal of all things.

Feng shui teaches that your external surroundings affect your internal ones. you must organize the space around you in such a way so as to cultivate the free, roaming flow of energy. But no matter how organized their room may be, some have their energy so locked up and in desperate need of liberation.

What makes it worse is how effective going back and forth between decisions is and how it causes a confused state of mind.

Technically you know what you should think and do in order to be at peace, but the echoes snow-flake throughout your mind to instruct and order you to behave in a completely irrational and erratic way.

Your heart goes to war, as does the optimism you so hardly try to discipline.